I have to say I am stressing quite a bit about the next few days. Going to be living out of a suitcase for awhile again. Hopping around from house to house, apt to hotel, etc. I fly up to philadelphia tuesday morning and up to new york the 3rd for the most attended audition in the city- The Radio City Rockettes.

I am trying to think 100% positive but of course my nerves sometimes get the best of me and I can doubt myself at times. I havent auditioned like this in quite awhile since being in South Africa. But we'll see how it goes, i know there is nothing to lose by going up there (except the big wod of cash it is costing me! lol). Just worried most about dissapointing the ones that are cheering for me both here and in africa.. I'm doing this for all those dancers over there that might never have this oppertunity..

A bit shocked with some people I have contacted to help me out with a few things. Only got a few responses from people and all I have to say is in circumstances like these you find out who your friends are..

All landed in the lovely US of A.
Was quite a mission of a trip. 17 hours to ATL, 2 hour layover and 2 hours to MCO. The plane was full full of americans and maybe a handful of South Africans.

I flew Delta and did you know you are now only allowed ONE free bag?! that is actually insane, it used to be two and that is what the average traveller would use. I had to pay $270.00 for my bags!! The only thing that keeps me flying Delta is their Skymiles. Other than that I am a hardcore SAA flyer. The food and custumer service/flight attendants are much much better. That is the airline I would reccomend others.

Meanwhile I had to collect 4 rolling suitcases and my carry ons in Atlanta and re-check them into baggage. Of all the people on the flight only 3 men offered and did help me with my bags. All three of them were different South African men. I made a comment to the last one "Of course, you're south african".. he asked what I had meant by that. And I said, "Because I know none of these Amercians are going to help me.." It's terrible to say but the absolute truth. And I don't mean ALL americans, but the majority really don't care about other people here. It's a fend for yourself kind of world here, that is the main reason I like South Africa so much better. People are friendly and feel they are all connected together even if they aren't genetically connected. I want to live in America for a bit to dance and perform, but want to make sure I get out of it before it makes me too cold...

-Tamra.

I *LOVE* all my fellow bulls dancers, you were all so kind and thoughtful. Will see you all again soon!! xo.

Counting down the days and counting down the hours.. My emotions are tending to run like a rollercoaster, one minute I'm in tears the next pure excitement runs through my veins. I didn't think it possible to SOOOOoooo many different feelings as I have had in the past fourty-eight hours.

Everytime I spend quality moments with Justin I tear up and try to memorize all the different sensations, file them away so I can re-open them when I need. This is definitely going to be a hard thing to do, I just hope it is for the best..

On a lighter note, I organized a class schedule for myself when I get back. Classes at Orlando Ballet, Space Coast, and Raskins. I need to get myself back into dance shape and fast..

Scheduled my first audition in Orlando for an upcoming show. Not for a little while longer, so will keep you all posted.

And within the next few days I'll start my new health craze diet with a slight detox. America, here I come!!

xo-

Tamra.

Goeiemiddag!

Two days until departure, back to the rockin MCO. I have been a bit sick the past few days... running a bit of a fever and the other usual symptoms. I always get like this before I have to leave Justin.. My mind says I'll be fine, be strong and don't cry. But my body shows all the prime symptoms of unconscious stress.

I am basically all packed up, a few remaining things to stuff in my suitcases. Went to Silver Hills Gems one last time (http://www.bronnrocks.com/?gclid=CI6Q0J-Qqq8CFaYJtAodPgRaZg) to stock up on even MORE stones and beads. I am nervous i'll get questioned for importing or something funny because it actually is ALOT of stones I am taking back with me. But strictly for my own beading purposes. Really hoping they dont give me any problems, I saved so much money to buy these to take home with me. If I distribute it all evenly throughout my bags I should be alright don't you think?

Selling all the last pieces I have here in SA. If you are interested let me know, I will not be taking it back home with me and need to get rid of it all.

xo-Tamra.

The most popular question of all time, What is Love?

..Is it willingness to give up your own wants to put another person first?

.......Is it just rolling over to that special face every morning?

There are plenty different aspects and opinions on this subject that can be viewed so broadly. Love is honest, and not blind. Love is not loathing, but patient, soft, and kind.

It can be taken away at any second, so enjoy it while in your grasp. It is fagile and needs to be mended time to time. Do not take it for granted.

Some love tales are novels... some just short stories. But that does not make them filled with any less love. Be appreciative towards eachother, and grateful to have someone on your side.

xo. Tamra

I think I am a bit more stressed than I thought. About my last Bulls game, dance in general, and moving once again to another country. I keep worrying about what to pack, what to leave behind, and what to give away; will all my beads, tools, and books be too much weight in my suitcase? what about border security and all the precious/semi- precious stones I'll be carrying. AH, hectic but I'm sure it will be fine.

We got the boot to the house this weekend and it's my final weekend here in South Africa. So we are crashing at Justin's parents house until the owners leave on Sunday.

Very excited for my last game on Saturday!!! Bulls vs. Highlanders!! I have so many friends and family coming out to support me for this one so I am actually extra excited to give it my all = ) Afterwards the girls planned a going- away joll at a club in Pretoria called Tys. VIP sections, free entrance, pop a little champaigne and have a go!! But I am sad to leave the girls and my coach behind. I have had my ups and downs with living here but I made some connections with certain people I am going to miss.

I never told her, but my coach Nicola I look up to alot. She has the life I really want to strive for when I get to her age. Has such a lovely husband and kids, her personality and social skills are perfect. She looks stunning and is always active, positive, and so nice. But also not afraid to tell you when you are in the wrong! Nix: I want to be you when I get to that stage in my life! xo.

Most of all I am going to miss my boyfriend. That's a door I'm not ready to open at the moment. I'll let the water works fall when I get to the airport lol.

<3

Today was a very peaceful day, nothing unusual, nothing unplanned. went and stocked up at the local bead and stone store called 'Silver Hills Gems' in Harties South Africa. Got all the last minute beads before going back to america. I am really trying to sell it all so I can just start fresh when I get to America.

ah America.. I am very stressed about stepping back on your soil.

<3
Tam.

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