Fear is an emotion that can effect you in many different ways. It can make you stronger and you can break through those barriers, or it can tear you down to the lowest of the low. You have to decide how to take it, and what to make of it. And every situation that fear is involved in is different. I have two situations where fear is the case... In my professional life and in my personal life.

I have a lot of pressure on me from certain people surrounding me. Saying I should be this or that by now in my life and making this much money, not that. I am at a constant battle with myself about why I make the choices I make, and I am always scared of dissappointing people. Not only scared of failing them, but then I feel the need to prove people wrong about who I am and what I do with my life. I have to start doing things just for me.. I have nothing to prove to anyone anymore. You can have your perfect makup, costumes, and boastful resumes. Maybe it's not for me right now, my time will come when it is meant to come, in a way that suits me for me. There is more to life then putting things down on a piece of paper. Will all that matter to you in ten years?

Have you ever been scared to lose something or someone you love so much you would sacrifice yourself for it? I'm so scared I am going to lose the one person who knows me best and loves me for me all because I made the wrong decision. The decision to follow the wrong dream for the wrong reasons. Only time will tell and I have to trust that everything happens for a reason. That's why I feel the need to build up new walls around my heart, so when the thing I fear most happens I won't crumble down as hard.

xo,
TC

New Post, New Body

So for the next few months I am going to be working extra hard on molding my body and making it perfect for dancing and modeling. Today I took an hour weight lifting class and an hour yoga class. It was a great over all body workout in each of the classes and the teacher was great! I went down to Gold's gym for the classes. Going to shoot for working out atleast 5 days a week on top of taking my usual dance classes whenever I am not working..

As far as my diet and eating habbits I have been eating fruits and veggies, a lot of protien and no carbs after 2/3pm latest. I will be taking a photo every two weeks to see what the changes are. I figured if I make it public I'll be more apt to working hard on it as to not embarrass myself on the internet! lol. However, I did forget my camera with the first photo to upload on here so you'll have to forgive me this once. I will post it here soon though = )


After all that.. its time to actually GO to my work! I have been working at the Dance Wear Corner now for about a week. It was really overwhelming at first but it is slowly getting better. There is just a lot for me to learn there and I still believe it beneficial to what I want to do later in life. Learning all about the different types of dance shoes and how they are supposed to fit on all different types of people. (I haven't gotten that far yet, but will be learning it soon enough = ) It surprisingly gets super busy in that little corner store, shocked me. And we get a plethora of different characters to respond to as well, and thats a WHOLE other post.

off to work now..

xo.