Fear is an emotion that can effect you in many different ways. It can make you stronger and you can break through those barriers, or it can tear you down to the lowest of the low. You have to decide how to take it, and what to make of it. And every situation that fear is involved in is different. I have two situations where fear is the case... In my professional life and in my personal life.

I have a lot of pressure on me from certain people surrounding me. Saying I should be this or that by now in my life and making this much money, not that. I am at a constant battle with myself about why I make the choices I make, and I am always scared of dissappointing people. Not only scared of failing them, but then I feel the need to prove people wrong about who I am and what I do with my life. I have to start doing things just for me.. I have nothing to prove to anyone anymore. You can have your perfect makup, costumes, and boastful resumes. Maybe it's not for me right now, my time will come when it is meant to come, in a way that suits me for me. There is more to life then putting things down on a piece of paper. Will all that matter to you in ten years?

Have you ever been scared to lose something or someone you love so much you would sacrifice yourself for it? I'm so scared I am going to lose the one person who knows me best and loves me for me all because I made the wrong decision. The decision to follow the wrong dream for the wrong reasons. Only time will tell and I have to trust that everything happens for a reason. That's why I feel the need to build up new walls around my heart, so when the thing I fear most happens I won't crumble down as hard.

xo,
TC